feelings concealed got revealed!!

I ask this question to myself day and night , dilemma lies in me too bright

Whose mistake was it? mine or yours..who will say sorry first now? you or me?

No pride it is,no ego of mine ,i say with conviction , it is

I was there for you friend whenever you need me,just like your shadow i stood by 

I got you everything you need, biggest smile to you I intend to bring 

Never cared for what i got,aspired to give you the best

Never complaint for your mid night calls i am there for you till i rest!

Then?..then what was it which brought silence between us? 

Was it love of mine or care for you divine?

Was it being so selfless for you ,my been a being so true?

well,I don't have answer for any of questions I mentioned, no answer is there for many more questions in mind I have! my topic of discussion is a true friend doubting trueness in friendship, whether lies or not ? or its just in fairy tales everything sweet comes and stays forever with thy. We, bunch of honest souls , loose ourselves amidst selfish beings and become similar to them.but my question is.. is it right to become just like them ? to whosoever I met they say ,"chuck them,ditch them its time to move on baby ,its time." well,yes to some extent they appear right to me why do we deserve the hell of sadness, searching for reasons why it happened but then my heart say to me " dear friend! how can you move on, your bestie have already moved too ahead of you. how can you ditch them,well you were not in any trade off initially ..a barter of returning pain,if given pain. " Am still little confused whether 'am doing right or should I adhere by my friends but I choose to be indifferent to situations around ,no more thinking I want.I am still not decided with what is the exact solution ,so this post will be continued.......

my friends sailing in my boat will understand all what i said above, others will just call it a piece of scrap,never mind.

mirror mirror tell me the truth!

I stand in front of mirror daily ,get ready and go for work  but today it went different,i stopped by ,I stood there for a while i made few faces :) :P :/ :( and suddenly stood expressionless. I,inside me, asked me  "so friend! how is your life going?" , I undoubtedly said "Awesome"  then I said "wait! umm yeah life isn't that awesome,some fights with friends ,some stress of study I have.. wait ,yes I am burdened with tension of what next in life and yes I have some arguments with other few" that moment I realised oh ! my life isn't happy.. lot messy it is.and then started the saga of I don't have this ,I don't have that..I want this..my wishes are not still met. it wasn't going anywhere beyond my never ending complaint list but then I said to myself again "hang on dude! why so pessimistic? I do have best place for work..in best institution I am, I can live the days I want..I have calibre to be what I want..I am honest in my deeds I cant help people who misinterpret me,I obviously can't explain myself to everyone out there.I do enjoy what I study, I am happy with where I am today..yes I was right it is not bad..awesome it is.So what I don't have a big car outside my house,well I never aspired for that any day . I can never make my future awesome unless I start living today. so yes it is awesome my friend ."  I smiled and went..I felt happy that day..my heart felt steadfast that day ..and from that day onwards I always smile in mirror before leaving....I say thanks to myself for giving me realisation of what I have..I don't have much complaints with life any more.

All I intend to say is its all about how we perceive the things. its all about perception I say..we can stop complaining only the day we start appreciating what we have..be it any face of life its always positive attitude which makes us cross the river.
go ahead and try once what I did..
Good Luck!